Silently Suffering

I'm wondering who I've become and how'd I end up here

It's thundering and I can tell the sun is no where near

I stay up all night, anxiety keeps me awake

While I'm just thinking about mistakes I always seem to make

Think I'm addicted to my suffering

I'm so inflicted with this sickness that's corrupted me

I seek forgiveness deep within because I hate myself

It's either sink or swim inside of this internal hell

Fuck

So many scars I try to cover up

Broke so many hearts, relationships I always fuck em' up

Lonely in the dark hoping to God the sun is coming up