Self Awareness

I'm trying to heal, they say the step of healing is like self-awareness, you feel me

So it's like, I gotta be aware of all the shit that I did, you feel me? With everything, it's like, right my wrongs, and I don't like to go back and like bother nobody, so I just write on this song, I hope you hear this from home, yeah

Yeah, I know I was toxic, yeah, I know I was ruthless, yeah, I know I was stupid, yeah, I know I was fucked up the way I treated you clueless, yeah, I know I did all of that wrong and I did stupid

I'm sorry for all of my past, I don't understand what I did, but I know I did bad, and I know everything you did, you did it for a reason, everybody left a nigga, that shit was in season, and I don't understand my pain, I don't know the reading, I be trying to go a long way instead of bleeding, I know me depending on you had it hard to breathe, and the way you left a nigga had me like a baby teething, just crying and crying and crying, and the hospital got shot, thought I was dying, ain't nobody wanna talk to me, I'm dying

I don't understand, oh, oh, oh, ba-da-na-na, ba-da-na-na, yeah

Cash on a bedroom floor, girls on their dresses, more than six when I'm talking to you, keep it going till you want it, it's just a suicide, it's just a suicide, we don't understand, it's just a suicide, we don't understand, it's just a suicide