DON’T GO

I don't talk. I don't try. I just dream. I just dream. I, I, yeah. I just wanna sleep. I don't wanna wake up

Middle school halls filled like a graveyard. Buried alive. No one sees my scars. They all talk but I stay quiet. Scared of the words. Scared of the silence. I walk alone. Putting up tight. Trying to fade in. Trying to stay out of sight

Every class. Every lunch. Just me. They don't even notice when I leave. Go home. Lock my door. Lay in bed. Close my eyes. Try to talk to the dead. She's in my dreams. Says don't go yet. But every time I wake up in regret

It's just a dream. Just a dream, yeah. Wake up and I still can't scream, yeah. No one knows what it's like to be me. Trapped inside my mind. I can't break free

She whispers soft. Says don't fade away. Someday you'll find me. Someday. But I don't know if I'll live that long. Every day feels so damn wrong. I don't wanna be here no more. Faster, more aggressive. Harder. Suicidal energy. Self destruction. Numbness. No escape

Another night. Razor to my skin. Trying to feel something. Trying to pretend. Pills in my head. Once the dose. Took too much. Now I'm moving slow. Mom's downstairs. She don't even know. How her son's in pain. How I wanna go. I ain't spoken in days. Lost in my mind. Wondering if I should say goodbye

I left a note on my windowpane. Said sorry I can't play this game. Before I go. I see her face. She cries. She begs please just wait. Maybe she's lost too. Maybe she's broken. Maybe she's drowning. Barely coping. Maybe she's screaming. Calling my name. Maybe she's trapped in the same damn pain

Don't go. Don't go. Don't go

It's just a dream. Just a dream. Yeah. Wake up and I still can't scream. Yeah. No one knows what it's like to be me. Trapped inside my mind. I can't break free

Don't let it lay. Someday you'll find me. Someday. But I don't know if I'll live that long. Every day feels so damn long. I don't wanna be here no more