it's my birthday soon

My skin will get lonely, so I let him hold me, but it only works for a moment

Then I'm back to feeling sorry, back to drowning in what ifs and talking to silence, too guilty to notice I've gone

Back to floating in circles, too busy collecting dust off my shoulders, cause it's been that long

Now that it's my birthday soon, and what did I do? but sit here and waste my body for you

I´ll apologize to the candlelight, cause I bet it got tired from hearing me lie

I'm weeping potential, bottled it up for later, almost as if I'm waiting to run dry, to finally have an excuse for my failures

For not making the family proud and blame the baggage passed down, but nobody else claimed it

Then pass 364 days until I face the consequence, cause now that

Now that it's my birthday soon my reminder to look back at the chances I let slip through candles on a cake