I'M REALLY TRYING

We all have something that we're not proud of moments in time where our judgment was clouded, it's not a one size fits all and it's not a glove with all the noise pollution our minds become crowded

Got someone over here who isn't thinking very clear can't articulate their words but they're trying to be sincere, then you move on to the next but find that their head's a mess and to them right and wrong just fucking coalesce

I I want to give up all the timeeeeeee it feels like I'm losing my minddddd I don't understand but I'm really trying to better me I feel I owe everyone an apology, even when I know it's not my fault I blame me for the things I can't resolve, oh maybe it's just too late but I'll keep on trying anywayyyyyy

I wanna go left but my heart tells me to go right I'm constantly in survival mode all I know is fight or flight, oh I I'm tired tired of running tired of being the only one gunning for me is this just how life is supposed to be

I feel like nothing I do is good enough oh God I struggle so much with my identity don't know my true personality, I break down and cry so many nights but now the well has run dry and I just I feel nothing tell me will I ever amount to something

I I want to give up all the timeeeeeee it feels like I'm losing my minddddd I don't understand but I'm really trying to better me I feel I owe everyone an apology, even when I know it's not my fault I blame me for the things I can't resolve, oh maybe it's just too late but I'll keep on trying anywayyyyyy