No Joy In Summer

I wonder if time can stop wish I had a stop watch to pause time and stop and watch one last time this has got to stop complete disarray since that dreadful day complete shock not sure what to say no one told me you would be taken away so abruptly this way the impacts are still felt it just added to the bad hand we were delt overwhelming self guilt

Ohhh ohhh ohhh I wonder if I will ever feel joy in summer Seems as if they are marked with cloudy skies and thunder it's been 30 years and I still wonder if I will ever accept summer Ohhh ohhh ohhh I wonder if I will ever feel joy in summer

We are losing everything you helped build not sure I ever healed ohhh Perfect Summer days spent on the road as others came and went can't think of anything I would rather do got into a pattern of adventures with you suddenly summers were something I did not look forward to I would rather sit at your grave with you if I knew I would have saved you

Ohhh ohhh ohhh I wonder if I will ever feel joy in summer. Seems as if they are marked with cloudy skies and thunder it's been 30 years and I still wonder if I will ever accept summer. Ohhh ohhh ohhh

Somedays I feel like this can't be real life is this what loss feels like it just doesn't feel right stabbing pain like a steal knife will I wake up I still might

I like to picture what you might think of me now would you be proud that I made it out I worked hard because you showed me how with a frown I have a hard time seeing your face now

Ohhh ohhh ohhh I wonder if I will ever feel joy in summer. Seems as if they are marked with cloudy skies and thunder it's been 30 years and I still wonder if I will ever accept summer. Ohhh ohhh ohhh summer ohhh ohhh ohh oh