.ramblings

(When I)

Wake up at night sweating bullets

With my heart racing fast, got me thinking "Will it

Ever stop, will I find some way to kill it

Or will cigarettes and long nights be my best deal here?"

Dealing with the devil at the night's last call

Begging whoever will hear me to just let me sleep at all

Looking at myself, I look like windows in a church

I'm together but I'm not, and I laugh to hide the urge

I keep praying but I wonder sometimes if I'm even heard