Depraved

I'd wasted my limited years running from monsters that I created

Became a person I thought I'd end up loving, turns out I'd only grow to hate him

Filled up the space where my heart once was,

now just a cacophonous void

Filled it up with boys and drinks and fun, living just to pursue all the noise

If you're trying to get close to me just turn back now

You shouldn't try to love a ghost who can't remember how

I'm just a little depraved

A little bit crazed

A little on the outside looking into your eyes