Relapse

I can't fall asleep no more, there's demons in the corner

And they're kicking down the door, I loosened up the hinges

I've been doing meditation, I still take my medication

But, the medicine ain't working for me, been retaliating on me

Walking like a zombie on the pain pills

I ain't gotta pay bills, but I'm still spending money I ain't got, it's like a treadmill

Feeling like my life is on a cycle

All my closest friends are suicidal

I used to wanna kill myself but died when I was thirteen

Started making music and my counselor was worried, but saw me getting pinned against the wall

Lately I've been dodging all the calls