Afraid

I hear you calling, so alluring, tell me it's okay

Cause I'm so despondent, always falling, I will never change

So I'll drift away now, betray the sweet sound, the promise of better days

And I've tried everything, I know I can't kill it. This thing inside terrorizing me till I feed it

And I'm afraid to feel again. I'm not okay, it never ends. Mind is racing all the time

I'm so damn sick of living this lie

It's three in the morning, waking up, don't remember what happened

Reach to my side, grab the bottle as the panic creeps in

The sweet relief takes ahold of me, oh I hate it