Already Dead

I am the physical manifestation of history's deadliest virus

I am a danger to the world in the absence of being violent

I'm the embodiment of a killer though my symptoms lay in silence

An unintended assassin actively practicing defiance

Inner hope didn't fully die yet, self-hate on a steady diet

While I exist, insist on a bucket list of things that I haven't tried yet

On the outside deadly quiet, while my insides are plotting a riot

A seemingly normal individual with the influence of a giant

I strive to avoid the weaponization of my worst inadequacies

That radicalize the imperfections of my health and humanity