i hate myself

You may think lowly of me I think even lower

Collapsing from the weight that's pressed against my shoulder

Everyday passes I dread getting older

Heart like arctic it don't get much colder

Trying to be the change I wanna see but have no courage

My anxiety rids me of the ability to flourish

Haven't ate in days I've been feeling malnourished

Haven't slept either I've been really fucking sleep deprived

Deprived of all emotions except despair I really want to die

I can't even do that right trust me I've already tried

Suicidal failures make me think it's for some reason