Learning How To Not Feel Anything Lyrics

I've been trying to say what's on my mind for months

But I've been so caught up in not getting it wrong

How do you ever know what you want

I'm out of town looking for space to breathe

Think it's fixed my heart, but it hasn't fixed me

It's fine though, this is all I need

I broke the heart of the best boy I've ever loved

And I hated having to tell him I was giving up

So I drown away my feelings in the sea

It's not even the same here as it used to be

I've been figuring out what's on my mind all year

I'd been so confused and wishing I was here

Cause I've never known what else I want

Cause what if minds always change like the weather

What if being honest doesn't make it better

What if one day, faith in fate stops holding me together

I found relief in the arms of my best friend

And god I'm so scared of how that might end

So I drown away my feelings in the sea

It's not even the same here as it used to be

Cover the floor with sand

Just to spill out my thoughts as fast as I can

The sirens scream on my way home

Running from it, I don't know

Daring the sea to scare me

But it never does

It never does

Oh, it never does

All I want's to be here by the sea

Learning how to not feel anything

So I write the words in someone else's phone

Looks like I have found my way back home