Gaslight Past Lyrics

Came up in a blue collared family

Dated a dancer from Milwaukee

Just graduated life was lovely

Then my dad died at a family party

Surrealism cut me deeply

I was doin' drugs and drinkin' weekly

I ran away from facing all my demons

I ran away from all my truest feelings

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings

It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me

And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be

I think I should go home but I don't know where it is

Met a girl first date did molly

Her beauty had me feelin' sunny

But her only fuckin friends were druggies

Yeah I used to call my honey honey

Got the ring and spent the money

Then she went and cheated on me

Tried to make her change I'm sorry

Been alone now three years workin' on me

I got me to blame for where I have came to

I still got a soft heart I'm not to blame for

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings

It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me

And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be

I think I should go home but I don't know where it is

And when you go on

You gotta know where you come from

Put yourself in my shoes stay true and livin'

Double down too be alone and trippin'

When all I could see was pain

I lost sight of destiny

Wonderful wild perfectly in process

Yeah this mess is me

I'm sorry for everyone that had to deal

With the shitty me

I bury it all in my heart

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings

It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me

And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be

I think I should go home but I don't know where it is