You Just Don't Know Lyrics

Things haven't changed, still plagued with angst

Still dream of Kurt's mic, and going out with a bang

I'm entrapped, a prisoner of my own brain

These chemical imbalances got me seeing strange things

Life ain't what it used to, be about

Now I wish I could choose to

Regain some happiness or at least chew through

Enough medication, until I puke dude

And if I don't asphyxiate, God damnit

Dosage wasn't high enough to make it happen

Just put me in a coma, some light drug nappin'

And when I wake up it's back to suicidal rappin'

Just know, it could happen at any time

Any of these verses could be my last rhyme

'Cause that's my main goal, reach the end of the line

Hopefully from some dope, at the end of a line

I don't know which way to go

You thought I'd have it figured out by now

But I'm an idiot

And I just keep on bringing myself down

Don't wanna be here anymore

I wanna go home

I always joke about killing myself

But you just don't know

I always inject when you invest

I couldn't ask for more 'cause I've always had less

Please God, I'm begging, just take away my breath

When I use Bobby Brown, for a quick rest

I'm not playin' around, this is not a joke

I really wanna die, I really wanna croak

Finally reached the end of my rope

It all started when I first picked up smokes

You still couldn't know after sittin' through my therapy

Of all these thoughts, and pleads to bury me

Can't get a promotion, even at Dairy Queen

The bitch I asked to marry me? She's scared of me

There's nothing to live for, I ain't got shit

I'm serious this time, when I say I'll quit

If you're not present don't talk me off the cliff

'Cause life is a choice, and death is a gift

I don't know which way to go

You thought I'd have it figured out by now

But I'm an idiot

And I just keep on bringing myself down

Don't wanna be here anymore

I wanna go home

I always joke about killing myself

But you just don't know

I'm afflicted, with an ugly gift

To live in pain all my life and never see it shift

And when somethin' goes wrong it's always my fault

When I have an open wound, I'm pouring in the salt

Like a vault filled, with nothing valuable

Nobody wants me, it's understandable

I can't process my constant losses

The thought of tryin' to smile just makes me nauseous

The cost is, a flatline

Because I'm self-destructive by my own design

I just wanna be happy one time (One time)

I just wanna stop worrying and stop crying

I feel like, these are my last days here

I don't like me, I wanna disappear

I'm bleeding, my life is fleeting

I just can't stand another day alive with no meaning

You just don't know, it gets so real to me

You just don't know, it gets so real to me

You just don't know, it gets so real to me

You just don't know, it gets so real to me