silver stitches Lyrics

Maybe tonight's not the night I write songs

Maybe it's the night I sit and watch the past go up in flames

Maybe I cry, maybe I worry, maybe I talk, maybe I don't

Maybe I don't know what to say

Cause tonight, every breath I take is a eulogy for our past lives

Soul transfusion through the ritual of breathe in, breathe out

The night sky as my witness, the moon hidden from view,

Observations start to set in

Like how there is power in the fact that you're not here

My sweet, we were two lions ruling the Savannah

Sharing our hunts, sharing our feasts

Protecting each other during lightning storms

Why did you cast me out when I shaved my mane?

You have given me the silver lining I never wanted

I thought the cloud itself was golden

Clearly my eyes were not adjusted to the light

Shining on your vision of the future

Where you sit alone beneath the desert sun

Under this acid rain of emptiness

I can't help but wonder if the scar on my heart is big enough to stop it

Or at least keep me wondering

When the next person to hold it will start lying like you did

If I will ever fall asleep in the arms of someone again

If I will every weave a tapestry of a life together with them

Except this time, they match my every stitch with the same sincerity I have

And we piece a life together and stay

It seems fucking impossible

Under an empty sky

Under a bright moon reflecting a burning sun

Am I capable of loving someone like that?

Are you platinum-plated evidence that all the self-doubts I ever had are true?

You know

I always worried that was the truth lurking around every corner

That you were waiting to be carried into the arms of someone

Who could make me look like the opening act

Those fears never slept

And now they have a new set of razor-sharp teeth

Ready to separate skin from bone

Ready to tell me "the voice in your head was right the whole time"

How am I not supposed to blame myself?

A decade is up in flames now

And my name is on the smoke in the air

I don't know what happens next

All I can promise is that I'll keep breathing

No thanks to you