Lost N Thought Lyrics

Remembering times when I was younger, and how I would wonder

If I'd ever amount to anything or be left asunder

Wishing someone could direct me to help and make clear

What's the purpose for me breathing with these feelings within

Why must pain be a thang synonymous with my name

And why must me keeping it real seem to link me with fakes

Am I wrong to consider me as one to succeed

Making something of himself while helping others in need

It's a day to day struggle, 365

Just to keep a sober mind along with staying alive

To and fro within my soul I feel the burning of flames

Making it hard to maintain, yet still I remain

Tears welling in my eyes cause my rhymes are real

From the depths of my soul revealed through paper and pen

A lone soldier battered and wounded, tattered and scarred

Trying to stay up living lost in thought

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought

Feels I'm down in the gutter with no where to climb

Pleading for release from this prison in my mind

Many nights I've tossed and turned wrestling through the night

With myself and feelings of spirits trying to enter my mind

Who am I, a question I often find myself ponder

Along with hoping my limits are not what I've seen in others

Many stories of gifts given that yielded no fruit

Due to pride, greed, real mistakes or refusing the truth

So I strive, to do what's right, in how I stand

Never seeing, myself as more, than my fellow man

Pushing past all images of meaningless gain

Seeking to be one humble with a focus unswayed

For better days, I strive though it may darken at times

To where I can't see my way and often just want to die

I'm barely holding on yet fighting still day to day

Lost in thought, trying to maintain

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought

Some say things happen for a reason, but who can explain

Why a nigga woke up this morning feeling living is vain

Why my homie had to die from cancer at an early age

Why people can't just live life instead of breed and speak hate

What's the reason for an illness made to leave you deranged

Various thoughts within your mind leading you to bring others pain

Or the purposes for the churches meeting every Sunday

From 11 to 2 you do your thang, come back, but things still the same

OG's tell me they see themselves in me and my struggle

Encouraging me to keep my head up high and stay thuggin'

Remain true, stay myself, never switch up or crumble

Keep my nose clean, don't be a fiend and stay out of trouble

As i recollect their words and dream of days unseen

I seek game through the living and the legends deceased

When it's all said and done this here is bigger than me

I hope what's in my heart I'll get to see

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought

Trying to hold on, trying to stay strong

Trying to keep my head clear so I don't fall off

Steady hanging by a thread but whose to say I'll live long

Trying to maintain living lost in thought