Living to Die// dying to live Lyrics

Can you tell it's getting bad again

Look me in my eyes and tell me we're still friends

I'm beginning to feel like it's the end

But this turmoil

It settles deep within

And I can't take no more

And I can't fake this smile

Plastered on my face

Like everything's okay

Dare you to look away

Ignore the fact that I'm going fucking insane

Did I fuck it up this time

Am I okay or am I dying

So sick of this life that I keep romanticizing

Please tell me what to do

To keep me from losing you

Because I keep on pushing away

And keep on running away

I'm unraveling

Collect my thread

And weave me back together

My demons are battling

So jump right in and save me from this monster

The festers in recesses of my mind

Controls my thoughts all the time

Fixated on doom and death

Tragedy and despair

That I'll lose you

Lose myself in this lie

That all consumes and preaches for my demise

There's children screaming outside

These 4 walls that close me in

Should feel safe but it's more like a prison

No food no sleep just constant worrying

People say they love you

But they just love how you make them feel

Well maybe I'm broken

Maybe I'm useless

So damn tired of making excuses

For why I'm a screw up

Should I just give up

Is it worth fighting for

Anymore

What if I am compromised

Of a body and a mind

But my body's breaking down and my mind ain't on my side

I just want to feel alive but I know deep inside that

I'm just living to die