self-hatred Lyrics

I know what I'll say

Won't make you stay

You'll just leave and turn your head away

Drive around looking for someone else to waste your time

Knowing that being by yourself is worse than any crime

And you'll give yourself to them

Praying their body will distract you from your skin

Destroying and desecrating the thing

You're so uncomfortable in

Despite the beauty and the strength

In every imperfection you feel pain

And emptiness

An endless suffocation

You'll walk around town

Head looking down

Thinking to yourself can I be normal somehow

Surrounded by people to drown out

The thoughts that tell you you're nothing and

You will feel better underground

So go ahead and self-mutilate

Curse the body that keeps you awake

Forcing you to recall the people you smother and people that will say

You're not okay

A sad fucked up thing who will soon decay