Afraid Of Lyrics

I got some questions

Why life so messy

What is there to learn from all of this stressing

Man these messages be blurry

Life moves in a hurry

Hope I'm proud of myself when I hit 30

Got people back home hard headed like stone

Out on parole wishing they back in the hole

Hate the fact it makes sense

Man the system so bent

Just glad we right with God when we repent

If you know me, you know I ain't never scared

Even with death man I've never cared

I got some things on here thought I'd never share

But I'm still sharing, despite all my fears

Despite insecurities and vulnerabilities

I still open like a book for y'all to read

I sow the truth so y'all can seed the reap

No holding back lay it out all on the beat

(What are you afraid of?)

I don't know

Truth be told

The unknown

I just want answers

Uncle got cancer

Says God always been blessing him and he not a pastor

Life is getting much faster

Hope Heaven's right after

World is ending hope I'm gone with the rapture

Man why I keep rapping

Man I don't hear no clapping

I want a real reaction

Why they keep laughing

Friends saying they there for me I feel like they capping

Never felt so insecure so how did this happen

I'm not just speaking my mind, I'm just pouring my heart

Realized who in my life can't play that part

So started writing myself and that was a good start

Just sucks when the people that you love don't support your heart

I think this is anxiety at an all-time high

Never got it checked out but I'm tense all the time

Everything I do I feel like I'm wasting my time

I be wanting to talk but nobody hits my line

(What are you afraid of?)

I don't know

Truth be told

That I fold

I'm not afraid to die

I'm afraid to live for no reason

Never change things like the seasons

You can't say I don't have a purpose cause when I was a baby you know I was seizing

Doctors didn't even know the reasons

High School my heart stopped I shouldn't be breathing

Doctors still didn't even know the reason

That's God see

Man I'm so thankful

Woke up another day some people don't wake though

Going in my sleep seems like the nicest way to go

I'm 22, black and still alive in this world

I'm not a statistic I hope my folks proud yo

But what if they not though?

Say I do this for the fam but the fam not a fan tho

Want to light this dark world but feel like a candle

Can't let my fears stop me from reaching my potential and that's real tho

(What are you afraid of?)

I do know

Truth be told

I stay low