CoNFLiCTEd Lyrics

I know I'm definitely breathing alright

But inside I'm suffocating

There's no time to cry

Cause I'm already in an ocean

So many connection to chains

I can't unlock it

And for my emotions i dug a grave to keep them hidden

Yeah I'm stuck in a place that only exists in my head

And I can't get it out

Neither can I run away

I'm a slave to my thoughts

Independence is gone

Here's a gun

Thinking maybe i should give it a shot

Yeah just one little shot

Says the voice in my head

Or maybe jumping off a cliff could get you out in a sec

But I don't want to

What about my mama and friends?

Huh?

And what about my pops who sees me as a gift

You silly crazy bitch!

Why you tryna talk to me?

Where'd you from?

How'd you get in here?! Huh? Talk to me

I just want to grab you by the neck knowing that you're here

Taking advantage of my emotions to get me to kill myself

But I cannot blame you though

I opened the doors to those

Who only commend the negativity in all my thoughts

Seeking validation in the places that were never home

Tryna be other people to the point where I neglect my soul

Feeling like an outcast in a place where I was born

Looking through those very eyes judging me from head to toe

They be saying words like you're ugly

You're not good enough

Cross checking myself to make sure I'm not the toxic one

They don't even know what pain is

But they inflict it

They say don't be sad

But they're the reason I'm conflicted

Telling me "be happy"

But that feeling is addictive

You know it never lasts

No surprises when predicted

Can't talk about the nightmares that i don't share

The yelling that they don't hear

The cuts on my skin

That I cover with a jacket

The paintings on the wall with my blood on my blanket

But everybody expects me to be smiling and they got that

But f that

The loyalty is dead and I can't forget that

And they know that

They're all tryna pretend and I confess that

These times are really difficult for me but I conceal that

Cause they just let me do it on my own so they could step back

But I'm done now

I'mma hand it all to god

Everyday I'm sinking in

Losing everything I've got

I can't even feel myself

My feelings are upon the floor

Ignoring my darkest hour

Knowing that it will be gone.

They don't even know what pain is

But they inflict it

They say don't be sad

But they're the reason I'm conflicted

They'll me to "be happy"

But that feeling is addictive

You know it never lasts

No surprises when predicted

Yeah

It's been predicted

It's been predicted

It's been predicted

It's addictive

They don't even know what pain is

But they inflict it

They say don't be sad

But they're the reason I'm conflicted

They'll me to "be happy"

But that feeling is addictive

You know it never lasts

No surprises when predicted

Yeah

It's been predicted

It's addictive