SURVIVAL MODE Lyrics

We met just before it started

if the borders hadn’t closed

I would have gone home

instead of loving you

But we made it work

talking through a screen

Then 10 days of you on my skin

you’re my first time and like a dream I woke up from

I feel so far removed from you now

All the doubts I had right from the start

I guess the circumstances changed me

You never wore the necklace close to your heart

It was self-destruction loving you but I failed to see

I was never truly alive with you

I was in survival mode

stuck in this old

pattern of mine

You said I’m not the one and our love’s wearing thin

But you never really gave me any time to think

Cause I was treading water trying not to sink

I was in survival mode

Now we’re over

I’m coming alive again

I was always more mature

we were so different

bad communication

why did I spend months

bleeding by your side

tryna figure out why

we sat in silence

Could have saved myself the effort

To hold on to something that was destined to be broken

from the start

Could have saved my heart

All the doubts I had right from the start

I guess the circumstances changed me

You never wore the necklace close to your heart

It was self destruction loving you but I failed to see

I was never truly alive with you

I was in survival mode

stuck in this old

pattern of mine

You said I’m not the one and our love’s wearing thin

But you never really gave me any time to think

Cause I was treading water trying not to sink

I was in survival mode

I’m coming alive again

You should know

I had the same thoughts so long ago

And I wish I pulled the trigger before you did

Cause I would have been the one who left it to die

Instead of relentlessly trying to keep us alive

And I guess you saw who I really am

if that’s why you left, then it’s in your hands

I was never truly alive with you

I was in survival mode

stuck in this old

pattern of mine

You said I’m not the one and our love’s wearing thin

But you never really gave me any time to think

Cause I was treading water trying not to sink

I was in survival mode

I’m coming alive again