THE LAUGHS WE USED TO HAVE Lyrics

When I was young my mother told me

I could be anything, even free

What I realized as I got older

Is she lied to me to try be my soldier

All the times that I have told her

I don't need her fucking shoulder

I'm watching her get older

While I'm chilling on the sofa

Looking at her posts on socials

Fighting over COVID

Know that our relationship is over

At least in the way we've known it

I really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up

On Halloween and pass out the candy

Now we mask and anti-mask, vaxx or anti-vaxx?

You think I'm mad but I'm just motherfucking sad

I really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up

On Halloween and pass out the candy

Now we mask and anti-mask, vaxx or anti-vaxx?

You think I'm mad but I'm just fucking sad

You don't listen when I tell you

I didn't live in conditions that I'd consider acceptable

I never wanted my friends to come over

Because I was afraid they'd see our goddamn mess of a home

And I mean that literally and figuratively

You figure I think you were a terrible mother to me

That my father was abusive and you didn't do shit

But I just wish you wouldn't apologize then still do it

Really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up

On Halloween and pass out the candy

Now we mask and anti-mask, vaxx or anti-vaxx?

You think I'm mad but I'm just fucking sad

I really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up

On Halloween and pass out the candy

Now we mask and anti-mask, vaxx and anti-vaxx?

You think I'm mad but I'm just motherfucking sad

Stop it, don't tell me to switch the topic

I gotta be honest, you're a cry baby when confronted

Your weaponized tears don't mean shit to me

I won't let you get to me

I'm thankful for your love but you're a bitch to me

Sometimes I feel like you're the kid, to put it simply

It pisses me off when you start that

"Please have some empathy or sympathy" bullshit

It's like trying to walk in a ball pit

Every time I take a step, I'm starting to fall quick

Every time we talk I check my involvement

I no longer let myself feel like a target

I let myself hug you

But I'm so afraid to touch you

When I think back, I love you

Looking forward, I say "fuck you"

I don't want to be estranged or be this way

Especially when you were everything to me

You're being punished for being the good parent

I'm sorry for this but I just couldn't bear it

I really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up on...

I'm just fucking sad

I really miss the laughs we used to have

I miss the way we used to mask up

On Halloween and pass out the candy

Now we mask and anti-mask, vaxx and anti-vaxx?

You think I'm mad but I'm just fucking sad

I don't know if I'd rather not know

All I know is that I'm grateful your colors are out to show

I'll miss the image before it shattered

I'll miss the privilege of when it didn't matter

If you were black or white or Asian, Hispanic

What you think about taxes

And masking, and vaxxing, and Black Lives Matter

I'm asking for facts and then laughing

At bastards for passing of COVID

They won't take a vaxx to save a child

I've had it, you assholes never mattered

I really miss my mom, we used to get along

I miss the way we used to sing to songs

I miss the times when we were young

Now everything is so fucked up

You think I'm sad, you think I'm mad

But I'm just motherfucking done

I really miss my mom, we used to get along

I miss the way we used to sing to songs

I miss the times when we were young

Now everything is so fucked up

You think I'm mad, you think I'm sad

But I'm just fucking done

"You really think that I'm so bad? That I do everything wrong?

What about my feelings, you don't think that I tried hard?

What about my freedoms? I need to have freedoms too

I'm done"