Right Now/How Long Lyrics

I'm just tryna get some closure

I can't accept that I'm the reason that it's over

Summertime, and yet my heart is getting colder

Iron-hearted through the winter, I'm a soldier

I know I called her, can't remember what I told her

Prolly cause a nigga not sober

Now mixing drugs with these feelings not the best thing

But feeling dumb because I trusted ain't the best pain

Giving love without a meaning it leave red stains

Problems bubble to the surface like it's champagne

Every other time we talk you say the same thing

Every other time we talk it end the same way

Try to talk about the talk we play the blame game

Try but nothing ever change going insane

I just wish that shit would go my way for once

I just wish that shit wouldn't go sideways for once

I get in my feelings when I think about it

Cause I know you moving on, and that's the thing about it

Did you ever really love me? baby think about it

Cause it ain't seem hard to end things right there

Trade betrayal for my love, no it wasn't fair

Shoulda listened to the niggas saying you don't care

I know, I know, your heart it need repair

I know, I know, you say that you were scared

I know, I know you got problems

I know, I know that love can't solve em

You give your love, they do you wrong, it's like a cycle

You think you better off with doing nothing, staying idle

Nothing like them niggas, and I put that on the bible

Showing you the difference with my love, girl I tried to

Doing shit together, but it's something bout the title

Let me see a nigga wit you, I get homicidal

Girl the way I feel, I wonder if you feel it too

I been down a while, so this shit ain't nothing new, to me

Funeral for the love, it was gone too soon

Who the fuck i'm kidding, it was never gone be you

My heart it like to lie, I gotta tell myself the truth, for once

You showed me all the signs, I think inside I always knew

Don't wanna cry in public, so I'm stuck up in my room

Fuck it, I hope the next nigga hurt you so you see my point of view

Talking to these bitches, but these bitches not you

I know I'm switchin up, you can color me confused

Sometimes I be talking cause they keeping me amused

But I don't give my heart cause i'm scared of the abuse

To feel this way, how long

How long, how long, how long

I just wanna know how long

I can't just cry and make another song

I've felt like this for much too long

Someone help me right my wrongs

Cause I'm tired of writing rhymes just to write my wrongs

How long imma be alone