worst of me Lyrics

Will you take a look inside my eyes

Can you decipher what goes on inside this head of mine

Then can you give me space so I can breathe again

Process what I say inside that mirror in your hand

I don't wanna give you the worst of me

I don't wanna have too much pride to apologize

I shake and I tremble and hope you don't run

When I pull the curtain you're bound to see, the worst in me

The worst of me

I spent years using sex as self harm

Impulsivity and searching for a remedy

It was introduced to me as a thing of shame

So I sought out new secrets in the bed of strangers

I settle for a touch and some mediocre passion

When he says he loves my body I do love the validation

It's been a while and I'm still through

I can't find the light inside a dark room

So don't think too much of the words he says

When he's driven by lust he makes false promises

That's obvious

I shake and I tremble, I hope you don't run

When I pull the curtain you're bound to see the worst in me

The worst of me

And if I start to circle down the drain again

Will you take some action? Put that stopper in?

If I say goodbye to healthy habits when I'm stressed out, alone, will you tell me…

"You can be okay despite the tragedy

Your life never stopped when you were 17"

That you love when I'm good

But especially now that I trust you enough to show the worst of me