Letter To Future Me Lyrics

I'm sorry I'm not the man I was

But little changes necessary sometimes

I'm trynna be the boss

I'm not just trynna be that one guy

That's does try

But always seems to fall short

Man all my life I've wanted so much more

And all this pressure

Got my heart and mind racing

I been grinding for so long

Even god knows

I'm lucky that I made it

I been struggling with patience

And if I had a conversation

With my future self

And he said time was wasted

I don't know if I could do it

I don't know if I could help it

I would try to end it all

And if I did

Would I be selfish

I'd prolly tell him it be better if he save it

Cuz I don't think that I could take it

I don't think that I could take the thought losing

Post traumatic stress

Suppresses optimism

When I think bout the future

My life been kinda like a movie

But 24 and learning how to be a man

Cuz no one taught you how to do it's

Embarrassing

But I guess that I'll handle it

Isn't that what the manual says

Or a very good guess

I don't know

But I know

I can't go to long

Without things

End up drastically

Going wrong

I can't take no more

Well I guess I can

But how much more

Is all I ask

That's all I ask

That's all I ask

That's all I ask

That's all I ask

And all this pressure

Got my heart and mind racing

I been grinding for so long

Even god knows

I'm lucky that I made it

I been struggling with patience

And if I had a conversation

With my future self

And he said time was wasted

I don't know if I could do it

I don't know if I could help it

I would try to end it all

And if I did

Would I be selfish

I'd prolly tell him it be better if he save it

Cuz I don't think that I could take it

Cuz I don't think that I could take the pressure

Of messin up

And I don't think that it'll get no better

Without some luck

And that's something I never had the luxury of

Discovered that all the work I put in

Wasn't enough

And runnin it up

Was much harder than I'd thought it was

Cuz every time I reach a goal

On my soul

I feel it's not enough

I always gotta get my dollars up

And when I finally get my dollars up

I gotta get my dollars up

I gotta get my dollars up

Can't seem to get my dollars up

It's not enough

It never is

I often feel like

Sedatives might help me

Be then again

My selfish ways will tell me

You made this far

You got it all by yourself

And all this pressure

Got my heart and mind racing

I been grinding for so long

Even god knows

I'm lucky that I made it

I been struggling with patience

And if I had a conversation

With my future self

And he said time was wasted

I don't know if I could do it

I don't know if I could help it

I would try to end it all

And if I did

Would I be selfish

I'd prolly tell him it be better if he save it

Cuz I don't think that I could take it