I Feel Terrible Lyrics

I feel terrible

On purpose for personal gain

I stay caught up in the things that I brought up a year ago

This is a miracle

I think I'm going insane by definition

I know that I'm in it

I keep doing this shit that I know that I shouldn't like over and over again

Damn

I'm staying out the way the best I can

But it's not a secret that I am conceded and this is just part of the plan

So now I think we have an understanding of the damn thing

I feel terrible - I can tell that you're feeling the same

The weight of everything that's going on lately

And how I kind of let it bring me down - maybe it sounds crazy

But I feel terrible

I know they can hear me

They watch through the TV

And even though I am online incognito I still get the feeling they see what I'm reading

O, God

They know what I'm thinking

They're begging and pleading to give them a reason to show up outside

While I'm smoking a cigarette looking the other direction

I realize how paranoid that sounds

But give me some credit

The last couple years have been crazy

Admit it

I thought I was alone until I opened up my phone

And got an ad for something I had just been talking to myself about

I feel terrible - I can tell that you're feeling the same

The weight of everything that's going on lately

And how I kind of let it bring me down - maybe it sounds crazy

But I feel terrible

I used to think that I was permanent

Like everything I did was somehow relevant

Like how could I have ended up in hell again

I get what I deserve and keep it moving, man

But then I start to panic

In the presence of the planet I have nothing good to say

So maybe I just need the world to get out of my way

Or I need a drink

Maybe two

I feel terrible