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I dont have the nightmares I had when I was thirteen and lucid dreaming

Didn't know about anything back then

Got lost in a sea of 3 w's

Looking up pictures of prostitutes

Thought that was what i was supposed to do

Tried to love how i look now

Tried to love how i look now

But i've never been good at lying to myself

Never been good at trying to get help

Never confided in anybody, even my own head

I don't have the opinions I had when I was thirteen and stroking bones in bed

Back then I was sucking down what satan said

And I know I crossed every line there was

Tried two more times and almost died

But that's dramatic, and I knew it was

(Ooo and I'll only do it one more time)

Tried to love how I look now

Tried to love how I look now

But I've never been good at lying to myself

Never been good at fighting for my health

Never confided in anybody, even my own head

And I got lied to by the internet again

I didn't want to, but I killed my only friend

Cause I was jealous, mad, and begging her for one more try, to cut me down to size

But she said "babe, I wasn't permanent"

Tried to love how I look now

Tried to love how I look now