Suffocating (Remix) Lyrics

I get high till I can't feel my face

Get high till I can't feel my legs

And that's not a joke that's a real issue

Crazy how trauma can really get you

When I was younger I never thought I would smoke

Now I fill my lungs till I can't feel and choke

Even ask my friends they'll let you know

The only time I can run away is when I'm not at home

I can't seem to cope

That's why I'm at my friends house

So I don't feel alone

Please, can this just end now?

Cause I hate my lonely thoughts

I hate holding loss

People sacrifice they souls to get to the top

This anxiety inside of me is rippin me apart

They told me not to sign cause the industry is dark They give me lies, it's given me a spark

And all I ever wanted was to leave my mark

What's it worth if the ones who love me ain't there to see it

Can't look in my old notebook cause I'm afraid to read it

Cause that's the old me and I'm afraid to be it

makin money off these new achievements And almost hate it I can't believe it

Since then I lost my girl, I lost my ways, I lost my place in this world,

Lost my faith and all of my trust

I talk to my mom and it seems like all of the love

Is gone, she don't even know who I am

She don't know my friends she don't even know my plans

First time I fell in love she didn't lend me hand

Fuck it though, yeah I guess I see where we stand

I started having seizures, In the hospital you never came

"Mom I feel like I'm dyin" mom I swear that im tryin

I write about you and it fuckin' hurts my chest

Cause there's more words than could be said Everytime we talk it's like I hold my breath

And honestly, that's the truth so don't lie

I hate taking these pills They remind me of me inside

So I look in my mirror wonder why am I here And if I get passed the struggles will the fear disappear?

I just needa get this off of my chest

Don't get me wrong though I am beyond just blessed

My family's happy so I try and practice

Just cause you're around it doesn't mean you have it

This the only shot that I got so ima trap it

I ain't been droppin songs cause I feel like nobody cares

And these recent life struggles have really gotten me scared

I need to stop playin games cause life isn't fair I show emotion but promotion just isn't there

I feel like I'm drowning I'm jumpin for air

I miss some of my friends and the bond that we shared

But it's good I know it's apart of growin up

It's a hard pill to swallow I just wanna fuckin' throw it up

I know about life but I ain't know enough

I don't know if it's real or fake when they show me love

I'm trying to live up to peoples expectations How am I supposed to reach a bar when it always raises

How am I supposed to go far when I'm full of hatred

And every second of life, feels like time is wasted

I can't save it

The Doubt seeps and it's not healthy

I'm a piece of shit, a money loan, and new people are friendly

I'm suffocating