Diary <3 Lyrics

It's safe to say I made a way I don't know how to feel

To ease my mind I smoke this pain I don't know how to heal

I lost my nana last year that shit still give me chills

I still can't shake that feeling off I don't know how to deal

And you know it's hard but I make it look easy

I give up my heart I provide for who need me

And I wrote this song so you smile when you see me

And man I can't lie sometimes I wanna die just to see you again

They want me to change, but I can't do it

If I feel a way I hit the yo and put it in my music

I know I influence

And I'm talking money I speak fluent

Stack it like I'm Jewish

Suave baby I been getting through it

I know that some day I will not be here

I know in some way you probably still care

We all have those days that we don't see clear

But it get better shit won't be like this forever no

I swear to god

I know say that every time

But I can't let it slide

Cause when I try that shit fuck with my pride

That shit fuck with my mind

You looked in my eyes and told me lies

That pain I tried to hide by getting fried

I come from selling dimes

You a homebody you don't even party on the weekends

You don't fuck with niggas they just turn you off you be playing defense

Baby I was young jumped in that water I was in the deep end

Don't nobody got me how they say they got me I don't really need friends

They left me out to dry and it was raining too

I came back home without a heart guess that's what pain a do

I was tryna get it I was in the trap tryna turn 1 to 2

I'm just tryna win so like I'm from out west I just throw up Ws

It's safe to say I made a way I don't know how to feel

To ease my mind I smoke this pain I don't know how to heal

I lost my nana last year that shit still give me chills

I still aint shake that feeling off I don't know how I deal

And you know hard but I make it look easy

I give up my heart I provide for who need me

And I wrote this song so you smile when you see me

Man I can't lie sometimes I wanna die just to see you again

I know that some day I will not be here

I know in some way you probably still care

We all have those days that we don't see clear

But it get better shit won't be like this forever no

I swear to god