Calling out for Help (2019) Lyrics

Yeah

Yeah

If you were me would you ever want to be, period (period)

If you could look through my eyes and see the world as me would you? (would you, would you really?)

If you were prey in the animal kingdom would you choose to sleep alone? (Nah)

Would you help me on the street if you heard the shit I'm dealing with.

Yea, nah cause

I think not, the piss pot, the piss take

And pave my way to grave my name upon the shame (yuh)

To dishwash the coin toss

The wishing well to hell, the luck can't tell apart what's real or not (yuh)

But I can I see the competition I feed the politician with more words for his arsenal (aye)

Just another soldier dead in battle, huh, one less person to supply the ammo

I have no choice in the matter because these voices they chatter

They have me climbing the ladder

This why I am a rapper hope to make people chatter

About these feeling that matter instead of loading the gat

No more loading the gat

No more hidden thoughts we open up the courts to prevent and make more prevalent (uh)

Or we take away our freedom as "human being"

That's false perception of us living were being hesitant (yuh)

I wanna take away the poor the rich, the politics, and make everyone equal (yeah)

To live a life where we do not insinuate or glamorize weapons to kill the people (yeah)

You look at me like I am porridge thick, like I don't know my shit, when honestly I want it peaceful

But we all just cover up the pain we hide inside, this dystopian future, but hey another like

That deep talk, that cheap chalk, that I walk

The white line of hive-mind that I balance

A sand in time that cross don't we, a sense of madness, before he's off the list (yeah)

I don't know any better I've been this way since 14 with the hammer and nail making my own coffin (yeah)

Maybe all along this was my fate

Maybe I'll go today

And this is real shit

Every night I contemplate whether to end this

And every morning I get the feeling I'm better off dead

What's said behind my back I fear

I tell you how I feel

And this is real shit

Every night I contemplate whether to end this

And every morning I get the feeling I'm better off dead

What's said behind my back

Yeah I'll tell you how I feel

Feel insecure, I'm scared to die alone, I'm a waste of space, waste of time

No one wants me in their life and this anxiety has fucking worsened to the point

Where I can't go outside and socialize like how It was before so I am trapped (yeah)

Stuck with this feeling, stuck looking up at the ceiling, sick of me dreaming with my eyes open

Sick of these people telling me that it is gonna get better

When it has never got better my situations fucking deadly but

remember (yeah)

That "some ones got it worse than you"

So what? my skin is bulletproof (nah)

Their pumping stomach full of tubes

I don't see a light don't think I'd choose to grab it

Think I'm suicidal cause it's truly what I want I'm not a fraud (they say)

What's a day without a little night implying that the dark is bad when I live through it everyday (everyday, yea)

I'm sorry logic as much as I love you one song is not nearly enough for me to be okay (aye)

One pill is not enough and this therapy's not enough

Friends telling me the futures bright is not enough (nah)

I struggle in trouble from what my mind is telling me gunshots like the trigger I pull and leave in felonies

Every single day not a moment of bliss

Continuous self doubt bout the smallest of shit (aye, aye)

Ever since I had those trips I never felt the same

Freaking out in panic as I melt away my brain and

I haven't given up but I am on the fucking edge,

I am sick of my fucking head, I can say all these words I pledge are true

It's like I'm having a PTSD attack right now I see my fear intact when I just try to think of, you

But you don't know who you are

Just a figure I created called YDoubleR (yea)

So imma ask you this again (yeah)

I'd like to think that we are friends now

If you were me would you ever want to be, period

If you could look through my eyes and see the world as me would you?

If you were prey in the animal kingdom (yeah)

Would you choose to sleep alone (nah)

Would you help me on the street if you heard the shit I'm dealing with.