Past Lyrics

This feeling inside of me keeps on pressing in spite of me

Using tools He provided me and advice He has guided me

Through the pain He enlightened me but these demons they idly

Cut me up like a side of meat like a wheel I am tiring

Loss of will is a fear to me, my pride was so dear to me

Devils angels appear to me to degrade me decietfully

These temptations are real to me, evidently but in secrecy

Even if people believe in me I keep doubting unreasonably

Yeah, I keep thinking bout the past times

Keep forgetting God's forgiven all my past lies, last time

My frustrations got invasive into my life, my time

Has come for me to let go of the past, I'm

Looking for closure the demons are closer than ever before but I keep my composure

A mental disorder is put on recorders to pump up supporters and rip up reporters

A stranger to vanity hanging on clarity

Laughing tyrannically oh the humanity

Void of profanity broken mentality

Endless calamity tempting insanity

Everything's breaking apart but I can see it's an art

Bullets inside of my heart telling me I'm not the boss

I end up taking a loss what would it cost

For me to get it together

I need to change for the better to reach my endeavors

I'm not gon' be here forever

I learned to never say never

Ties will be severed and family torn I wish I never was born

These are the stains that I've worn

Solitude keeping me warm friends say that ain't the norm

I am not over it yet

Why can't I put it to bed, all of the pain that I bled

I need to put it to rest, I need to put it to rest

Hey

Then people tell me I'm not alone, but I'm a stone

I keep skipping on the corpses and bones of the unknown

Is the place I know that I can call home, I'm in my zone

I keep mirroring the things I've been shown

I'm on a tight rope

Keep my eyes closed, cause I might go

Down if I see I am at a crossroads

I ain't got no high hopes

How can I cope if my mind chokes

Will I make it out, man only God knows

Speaking plain in the rain

More disdain in my brain

Still the same never gonna change

I'm insane

What's left to gain if I leave the plains in a plane

I can't attain but I can't complain

Simple rhyme cut and dry

I supply quick replies

Can't deny my skill that I apply

Open eyed, you should come on by come say hi

Don't be shy

Let me show you to the other side

Buried inside of me is the person I'd like to be

I wanted to set him free but the devil suppresses me

Potential and excellence of myself it impresses me

But drink from the well I see Word of God it refreshes me

The past is a burden and often times it distresses me

I tend to to see only the things that often depresses me

Remember that even though Satan pushes progressively

The person inside of me Jesus Christ always blesses me