Dear me

I'm sorry if I let you down

But I tried really hard when mommy wasn't around

Dear me

I'm sorry that your daddy died young

That you never got to experience

How beautiful he was

Dear me

I'm sorry that your granny

Talked shit about Your mom

I wish I gave you strength

So you could pack up and run

I Wish you wasn't scared to use

Damian's dads gun

When you found it in the bathroom

With the safety pin up

I know you would have done it

You still think about it

Used to take pain killers

Cause the blades wouldn't cut it

Sliced up wrists just to see your blood spill

And Sobi was the only one who knew just how it'd feel

You'd laugh it off too

Like it wasn't a big deal

But I knew it really was

I never saw your heart heal

Late nights folded in your bed

With your cuts

The more pain you felt

The bigger got your guts

Dear me

Who knew that we would make it this far

Now you graduated university with a degree

Dear me

You made the whole family proud

Made them beat they chest loud

I know daddy would agree

And I, thank God

You haven't gotten pregnant

I know he up there relieved

Cause it ain't time yet

Know you chasing all your dreams

I'm just glad that you believe

You could do anything

That you put your mind to

At least, you

Never let the pain define you

Though wounds surround you

You pushed through it all

You made room around you

You gave yourself space

Said "Milk I got you"

And Even when the situation didn't allow you

I'm sorry that you didn't get time with your sis

Now she's all grown up

As hard as catching up is

I'm grateful for the chance

She's as beautiful as me

And when she hears this drop

I hope she's smiling proudly

Thank you for the nights

You failed to take your life

It was in your darkest moments

You became the light

And As the hole got deeper

You kept holding tight

So I'm grateful to you

That we're still alive

Dear Me

Dear Me

Dear Me