i hate myself ft. Sadlilblackboy Lyrics

I smoke cigarettes

Because I got a problem

With my mental health

I don't know how to help myself

Don't know how to ask for help

I don't know how to not break myself

Don't wanna see so many sunrises

Because of all the late nights

I know where all the afterparties is

When I'm tired as shit

And I just wanna keep going

And fuck with that blow

And be a different person

That I know I will like

I'm a different person

You see on the outside

On the Instagram

Tryna get a lot of likes

Smoking in this room

When I'm supposed to smoke outside

I'm the one that you thought

Was so good but I couldn't

Make one good decision

Even if I could

Fucked up

So drunk

I got no one to love

I hate myself

And the way I am

I hate myself

And the way I am

Go

I hate myself

I'm trapped inside a system

Lock my heart and hide the key

And know there ain't nobody miss 'em

Got some cringe I call my life

And see as memories

Dodging all my peers

Because I know they're so ahead of me

Lace my blunts with Ketamine

Chase my pills with Hennessey

Dive into the ocean from the bridge

It's feeling heavenly

Died when I was seventeen

Got stood up by Emily

Hate myself much more

Than you could ever know

Or ever be

Jumped to methamphetamines

Can't change a world I'll never see

Weight up on my heart

And man I'm only stuck on

Level three

Still make the same bad decisions

And in my position

I know I should change in my heart

But don't know where to start

I hate myself

Because I make a lot of bad decisions

Then I suffer the consequences

And just live with them

I don't fight

I don't try

I don't hide

I just lie

In my mind

Like it never ever ever happened

It never ever ever happened

Coming up and being happy

It never ever ever happened

I hate myself

And the way I am

I hate myself

And the way I am