12-3-20 Lyrics

Sometimes I sit in my room and wonder

Do they ever really care or is it just cover

I ain't tryna start no shit, not dropping names

But it's getting to the point I don't want to talk to you lately

Let me refrain

I'm done playing these games, I'm hitting up old flames just to feel something

I've gone cold to the world, feel like I'm sick or something

Would give my heart to anyone and still not ask for nothing

That's how it always is

What do they want from the kid

It was my fault for trusting these women with bad intentions I'll sadly admit

I knew what they was doing

And they would always prove it

Thought they liked me, only used for attention, but who I am fooling

Money on top

But you look better

With your legs wrapped around me

Can't take this pain no more, feels like I'm always drowning

Always thought you cared, but you proved me wrong, let me get another round please

Put my value in others now I'm always doubting

Now I'm always doubting

I'm losing my grip, I'm losing focus

Lost my sense of reality, this life I'm living is kind of bogus

I mean it's fake

It was my mistake, I let them take what they wanted, but all I got left was shake, damn

She got to eat her cake and take a piece of mine too

Hurt almost everyday, she took my peace of mind too

Can't believe she got to me, it was just designed to

She'll always be a part of me but I think that it's time to

Let go

But I don't want to though

I feel safe here

Too comfortable I fear

She's bad for my health so

And I still drink and smoke

Didn't care if I went broke

She's all that I've ever known

I let them take advantage

Still hurt but I can manage

It's love but not romantic, not what I want it to be

A bandage not enough

I'm supposed to be tough

Felt like giving up, but God's got a different plan for me

I'm working on myself, I'm increasing my wealth

Focused on my health and my homies

Taking time to rewind, I've been feeling way too lonely

Let it die, had to cry, hold her tight, hold it closely

That's real

I don't wanna hurt

People anymore, I think that it's all about me

Can't wait a second more, you need some space without me

Try to justify, feelings deep inside, so irrational, end up fighting

Try to protect my peace but I push away the ones around me