juneberry Lyrics

I'm tired of learning how to healthily give

Anything outside myself so I still tend to strip my sunken limbs just to try redeem the Selfishness that killed my wonder as a kid

Being close always meant I couldn't feel present

So when you say I'm safe to stay

The stutters come back even though I wear your smell on my shirt

Trying to take my meds won't always work

Until the day I die I will confuse joyousness for hurt

I hate myself

I'll let my health wither

Thinking I'm taking care of someone else

I used to swear I was fine

So now I work to feel able

When true love reads like a fable

It's my childlike needs on a shelf

It's you hoping your myopic, self serving advice could help

I know there isn't a moment that you think you missed

So why am I living more as a stranger, less as a kid

I think resentment is natural

It's how you navigate the growth not how far fell the apple

At least I fucking hope so