Fighting My Feelings Lyrics

I know you take me as a fool

I know you don't tell me the truth

I'm doing shitty in school

Working on music is cool

Life used to be fun but now all this stress building up

Lately I been in my feels, lately I been fucking it up

You ask me how I feel, but the truth is I don't know

I been tryna understand my feelings since I was born

Don't know why every morning when I wake up my head will hurt

Don't know why I don't open up, music is a curse

It's a gift and a curse, I don't put in the work

That's why I won't ever blow up, I'll just sit here and burn

I won't ever learn, I won't ever swerve

Playing wit this shawty's feelings', she got all the curves

Scared one day I'll lose all my morals

And just say, "Fuck it, I don't even need to be loyal"

And I'll take a few pills that I couldn't afford

I'll be living' on the edge, cuz I know that I stole them

And then my mom will come visit and then she'll see where I store them

And then I know that that'll break me right down to the core

So I get anxious go right to the bedroom, pour me a four

And I can hear her yelling from outside my door

I'm a tortured soul, so smoke my problems away and I start to roll

I'm chillin', I'm chillin', nah I'm just way too closed

Antisocial, problems mounting up, got my hands full

Hell is so hot, these celebs so cold

I know you take me as a fool

I know you don't tell me the truth

I'm doing shitty in school

Working on music is cool

Life used to be fun but now all this stress building up

Lately I been in my feels, lately I been fucking it up

You ask me how I feel, but the truth is I don't know

I been tryna understand my feelings since I was born

Don't know why every morning when I wake up my head will hurt

Don't know why I don't open up, music is a curse

Hate me, break me, mentally erase me

I been on the come-up, soon I know you'll wanna date me

Wanna be my baby, you been driving me crazy

You say that it's over, then, "I miss you" on the same day

You controlling my mind, you got a grip on that bitch

I know love's hard to find, when I shoot, yeah, I miss

And I'm so sad inside so I cry in the whip

You got the devil's eyes', you got the devil's kiss

Mentally unstable, heart is on the table

Wish it was a happy ending but this ain't a fable

Fighting feelings, Imma Titan, yeah my codename Vrabel

Wish I could stop dreaming bout' you, but I'm unable, oh

I'm fighting my feelings, and I'm getting so high

I'm starting to go to the ceiling, yeah

My rhymes are on time, throw my racks off a building

Any death is untimed, but for mine I feel it, oh