Wishful thinking Lyrics

I wanna know what it feels like

To live this life

Like I never had it too rough

And this time

I decide

When Its all ever too much

Been through this before

I can feel it in my gut

If these walls could talk

Maybe they would say what's up

I been outta pocket

Even when my money's up

I don't want your love

If the benjis is enough

Sometimes I keep praying

That you fuck up with the next one

I been in my mind thinking of my ex love

I knew that it's time well spent

Left ya boy with the check stubs

Think I learned some lessons from you

But they got me messed up

Ultimatums were never my thing

I always I get one

I'm so used to the

Crash and burns

I see ashes

Lesson learned

I wanna know what it feels like

To live this life

Like I never had it too rough

And this time

I decide

When Its all ever too much

Been through this before

I can feel it in my gut

If these walls could talk

Maybe they would say what's up

I been outta pocket

Even when my money's up

I don't want your love

If the benjis is enough

Don't you ever wonder

If love really hurts

I know you ain't feel none

Bury me in dirt

Why you gotta leave

And try to play the victim first

Knew that you was wicked baby

Love in reserve

The way that you keep acting up

I think that you rehearsed

Ten toes in the mud

I been grounded in earth

Illusions of our past

Got me thinking curse

I knew we could end at any moment

And disburse

I wanna know what it feels like

To live this life

Like I never had it too rough

And this time

I decide

When Its all ever too much

Been through this before

I can feel it in my gut

If these walls could talk

Maybe they would say what's up

I been outta pocket

Even when my money's up

I don't want your love

If the benjis is enough