Actually Tears Lyrics

I don't ever show the pain

I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight

But inside I really ain't

See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break

Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face

Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears

But these are actually tears

Searching for the words

Cause I just don't know what to say

Still can't believe you gone

Although it's been a couple days

I'm in and out wit emotion

Almost broke down today

I'm struggling

Cause this right here a different type Of pain

I miss the days when we was kids We Was Always together

And no matter our differences

We be there for each other

Hooping in different hoods

Whoever guarding is suffered

We was taking ankles on the daily

Just me and my brother

I can't believe that this happen I'm Still in shock

You was doing so much better

And just got coo wit ya pops

You was always hard working

Just tryna get off the block

Was pose to see success together

This wasn't part of the plot

My potna in crime

Until the end

My brother

My best friend

How I'm pose to move on wit this Pain

And tell my son he'll never see you Again

I don't ever show the pain

I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight

But inside I really ain't

See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break

Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face

Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears

But these are actually tears

My and my sister really going Through it

My sister birthday coming up

Don't know if she can do it

It really wasn't that long ago

When we helped her with moving

I know she know you love her

And don't want her day to be ruined

Naw

And I know you and ya mama

Had ya differences

But she love you more than life

It's just so hard to deal wit this

She know you loved her too

And she strong even though she Feeling it

I thank God he let her her give me The best Friend I ever kicked it wit

I know that internally you was Always fighting

Peace was something that you had a Hard Time Finding

I know you gone and I hate it

Don't like it

But now yo beautiful soul in a better Place Shining

I'm hurting inside

But I guess I gotta put on this facade

You was always searching

So I guess the day I lost you

Is when you found God

I don't ever show the pain

I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight

But inside I really ain't

See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break

Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face

Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears

But these are actually tears