Control ft. s0cliché Lyrics

And all my life I've had to go

These conversations I'll never know

I thought there'd be another call

I thought that I could keep control

Staring at the blood on all my knuckles in a fist

Promised that you'd never find me in this place again

I been getting faded on another fifth of gin

Think it's time I go my way and start to make amends fuck that

I been in my own way I'm talking like most days

Got all that I wanted but this shit still hurt like always

I'm forever haunted by the way we had to part ways

Shit just hit me sideways hits me in the driveway

Hit me on the ride home hit me when I'm there

It shows no discretion it comes on without a care

Never learn my lesson no I'm never playin' fair

Cause this world is slowly fading and nobody is aware fuck that

Take off all your blindfolds leave them as a side note

People don't appreciate what's right outside their windows

On this path I deviate cause what I seek is golden

I know it's worth beholding just know I never chose this

Sometimes I feel like all my life I've had to go

These conversations I'll never know

I thought there'd be another call

I thought that I could keep control

But shit we fuck it up and make some history

I'm bout to light a blunt I'm bout to feel the breeze

I can't take any more what you do to me

I try to keep my control as we're spiraling

I keep it on the down low so loud when you're upset

Sometimes you act so cold I'm witnessing a sunset

Smoking on a long one so that I can forget

Shit inside my household I been running up debts

My eyes are wide awake to the wake of my past

Made some damn mistakes, and I pray you'll never ask

I look in the mirror and all I can see is ash

I try to keep things clearer like the drink inside my glass

And all my life I've had to go

These conversations I'll never know

I thought there'd be another call

I thought that I could keep control