Riverside Lyrics

I'm sobered every Wednesday as I realize I ain't who I wanna be

But I've rationalized where I've come to peace

It ain't real peace, it's just where they're shovin me

In fact I'd love to sleep but stay awake rubbing these eyes

Thinking maybe I can rub em so hard that I cry

I'm so fake that I can't reach catharsis, but I'm still aching to get some tonight

I don't need anyone telling me who I am

You say too much

I know you're honestly tryna give compliments

But my soul gets crushed

I ain't made for praise, I'm crumbling

Lord show me something humbling

I pray you would keep me from fumbling by showing that my glory is dust

And suddenly I'm talking to a man I don't feel like I can ever live up to

But oh how I want to

He speaks so naturally, I'm awkward and angsty

He seems to have clarity, my mind is so wavy

He expresses everything I wanna say in an eloquent way

He's genuine, he ain't in his head

And he makes me feel it's treachery

How I put my faith second to these feelings that I'll lose friends if I go express the King

I've been thinking bout destiny

I've been thinking bout questioning where I'm goin

But these demons tryna keep me going through the motions

Can't let me realize how the road's been slopin

I'm hoping it's not too late

I ain't two-faced, I got three at least

Said I'd never betray at the last feast

Now I throw it all away so casually

And I'm asking

How could I do this?

How could I do this?

I'm full of excuses

I'm full of excuses

I don't need anyone telling me who I am

You say too much

I know you're honestly tryna give compliments

But my soul gets crushed

All this pressure on me

All this pressure on me

I wake up so idealistic

Then by lunch, I'm already realistic

Cuz to be honest, most my Christian friends are uninspiring

And tryna do this on my own is really getting tiring

I know I don't sit down and pray enough with my closest ones

Say we don't got the time, man, we gotta make some

Priorities

I don't need any more of these commitments that just stress me out

Got alot of burdens, so I take some

And go talk to a man I don't feel like I can ever live up to

But oh how I want to

He knows that I done goofed

But talks to me gently

I stop all of my thoughts

And listen intently

He prolly knows I'm mirroring his body language even when I don't

And it prolly shows I'm trying too hard to look grown

But he gives me hope, saying he was once troubled from youth

Chasing down these things that I want too

So now I'm standing by the edge of the river

Excited and anxious to take this dive

I feel my legs shake, and my heart starts to quiver

But your Spirit keeps pushing deeper inside

Lord don't stop 'til the flesh is crucified

Tear off all this skin I try to hide in

I don't wanna hide this

I'm sorry that I hide this

Every day, Lord come and baptize

No matter where I go in search of fulfillment

I'm always led back to the place where untouchable sin and unfathomable love

Cross

Where the blood washing over me and the word of salvation

Are re(A)d

Where my weight is lifted and I'm made to shine, so the burden

Is light