Addicted to Now Lyrics

When you've spent as long as I have chasing a dream

Time starts to move quicker than before

So you take things to the extreme

Like Selena says everythings not what it seems

My mind splits from its seams

Dwindling self-esteem

People gonna give me praise

On that stage

So I wanna take things higher

Cause I'm really at that age where I'm caged

Into a life desire

Don't you wanna do this or that I don't know

I don't wanna play tit or tat with my life

20 years old I'm just hitting my stride

Transform to a boss like Optimus Prime

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now

I'm addicted to maybe

My thoughts are intrusive

I'm addicted to crazy

My *** was abusive

Past trauma got me in a chokehold

Useless I'm feeling this more time cause

If I don't shake these fruitless feelings

My sun won't shine

I'm needing some life force

Like Goku lend me some

Cause these long roads are giving me blisters

Carrying on my back my brothers and sisters

Building on sand with rusty fixtures

Can't heal wounds with shoddy stitches

And I'm battered up

But it's my time on the plate I want a home run

So imma batter up

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now

Still young dead broke

Life moves quickly dont it

One week counting hundreds

Next week scarping pennies

Haven't been blessed with plenty

But I've been given enough

Yeah I'm still grateful heavy

But I'm sick of living rough

Vote wouldn't you want a life bespoke

Rewind to the time I was cracking jokes

Told mum imma rock the boat

And make u proud I'll bring some hope

Spent some time on the craft evolved

Feet in the mud I've been involved

Bring up the fam my friends my home

Brush of the dirt I'm in my zone

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now

Finger on the trigger body full a vigour

I wanted to make that pow

Then I got the shivers aiming at my niggas

How am I gonna live that down

PTSD shaking me feeling that pressure wow

I'm addicted to maybe

So I'm missing my now