better than die (voice memo) Lyrics

Turning twenty-two next month

Still scared I might be alone

I pretend I'm fine but I'm dying inside

What else you want to know?

That life is hard and I'm on the wrong path

Is that all you want to know?

My soul is in pain

But I can't complain

All the traumas I drag are not gonna die

Until I end up myself

It's not like I haven't strive

But my mind is all like, just give up on yourself

I don't want to but I might

I'll try to stay alive

It's gonna be hard to strive

But being alive and cry is

Better than dying, dying

But what should I do? am i gonna go through?

I've been going through hell without knowing why?

Do I deserve all this pain?

I tried to face it but in vain

Is living truly better than dying?

Is living truly better than dying?

Life taste like no colors

Depression got me like no other

I'm tired of fighting, I swear I've been trying

But it's hard to let it go, I should let myself go

I tried to pray and ask for help

I keep screaming, but no one's hearing

Or maybe no one really cares about me at all

So I write songs to forget, but crying is all I get

Oooh

I don't want to but I might

I'll try to stay alive

It's gonna be hard to strive

But being alive and cry is better than dying