As If I Lyrics

Hey God, I've got some questions

About the way you're running

These pieces of my life

'Cause I denied I'm not alright again

I know that I am to blame

But I keep playing this game

I'm too scared to admit

That I denied I'm not alright again

The stars shine brightly here

This world I hold so dear

I know that you are good

But I deny you'll do the things you said you would

Don't you know who I am

Don't you know what I've done

Yet you give me this task oh Lord

As if I could speak for you

As if I could be for you

When everything that I want

Is everything you are not

And still you call me anyway

As if I could speak for you

As if I could be for you

I hate the things you tell me

'Cause they require letting

Go of all that I know

So I deny I'm not alright again

It's hard for me to believe

That there could be something

Beyond this mess I see

Let me deny I'm not alright again

The stars shine brightly here

This world I hold so dear

I know that you are good

But I deny you'll do the things you said you would

Don't you know who I am

Don't you know what I've done

Yet you give me this task oh Lord

As if I could speak for you

As if I could be for you

When everything that I want

Is everything you are not

And still you call me anyway

As if I could speak for you

As if I could be for you

What can you see within me

But who you had to redeem

All of my mistakes

The times I lie and fight and run away

All that I am is worthless

Why do you say I'm worth it

You asked me to speak

But God it cannot be it cannot be

I'm just too bruised and broken

To be who you are hoping

That one day I'll become

So I deny that you are right again

I live like I don't love you

So why do you pull me through

God I could never speak

Could never speak could never be for you

You hold me in your arms

And calm my wandering heart

Though my soul has been cast down

I find that I am lost in who you are

'Cause God you know who I am

And you know what I've done

But your son has died for me

So I am to speak for you

So I am to be for you

Though I struggle to be

The man you want out of me

I'm not the one you choose to see

So I am to speak for you

So I am to be for you