Baby boy interlude/Grand total Lyrics

Sadness and anger resting on my heart

My mind stuck on reaching my goals before i'm old

A lot of things had damaged me even at the start

But how is they gone feel bad when don't nobody knows

Dear God ya baby boy needs you

Emptiness I feel inside got me thinking i'm see through

Dear God ya baby boy needs you

Dear God ya baby boy needs you

Your grand total is... depression

Gotta keep going

Don't quit

Things ain't been goin easy for me

Problems been around way too long

Fighting with my life that nigga way too strong

Writing hella music been in and out of the studio

But damn I haven't been on the stage in so long

I been dealing with depression

Low confidence fearing my music being rejected

Shit got me in the mind state of working harder than ever

Ignoring real problems ain't smart nor clever

I was doing that by being more artistic

Hard to be creative when your being evicted

Perfect balance between imaging and realistic

On top of that, you avoid being another statistic

So I tread softly

I'm tryna get the bread while fighting the demons off me

I'm making my next move I hope it's not costly

Cuz lately it's been costing me a lot

This music shit is really all I got

So if I lose that I fuck around and lose myself

Too much pride

I been saying I don't need help but really I do

And I ain't have a clue that I need it

This shit got me feeling broke and defeated

Thats my grand total

That's my grand total

That's my grand total

That's my grand total

I been holding in too much

Things been too rough

Ain't been tryna cry about it

Niggas been too tough

It's been two days laughing it off is starting to hurt

So you just might see too many tears on my shirt

Gimme two years that's what I said when I first started

Two years later yo ass still ain't get off the carpet

Add another two years now you too sad

And you thought that they gave a fuck about that too bad

You too careless

Lost yo girl after two fuck ups

Took you a while to get her cuz you said she too stuck up

You and yo momma can't talk for two minutes

One wrong said conversation finished

Now you dealing with two options either stay or go

If you choose the second one make sure that you stay afloat

It's two things that get you through life and music

Chest up and chin out don't ever lose it

That's my grand total

That's my grand total

That's my grand total