rejection sensitive dysphoria Lyrics

I'm losing track of the days again

Searching for something to say to them, something benign

I've been feeling so invisible lately

Do they know I'm still here, do they hate me?

And I just looked at my phone again

Desperately trying to hold it in, biting my tongue

'til it bleeds, I just need to be noticed

Could you spare just a piece of a moment

3AM still no response

Feel ashamed to even want

Wondering where have you gone

And I'm dying just to know what you are thinking

But I know the consequences won't be minor if I ask

If I don't know then I can just keep on pretending that it's fine

If I inquire there's no way to take it back, another panic attack

Another looming catastrophe I don't know how to act

Line my chest with bubble wrap to try and keep it intact

Maybe I just need a little more time to redefine

But do you want it like I do?