Paul Lyrics

Excuse me, if you had just one thing you could get off your chest so you would feel totally free, what would it be

Uh, what situations have I been hiding? It's inconvenient, but I've been biding my time

Thinking that I've been sliding by, trying to cover up my crimes

Committed against humanity, committed against innocence

When I was no more than an adolescent, and let me be clear, very ignorant little kid

And now as a man with a wife, trying to behave like there's God in my life

Trying to convince only me that I'm living, pursuing His will, but the motives ain't right

Cause I think I just want to leave an impression, and maybe I do

But I'm second-guessing whether it's worth all this effort just to be missing His blessings

Next thing I know I'm alone on the couch, living in garbage like Oscar the Grouch

I see what I want, and I cannot have it, but they just keep leaving the mall

Their shorts getting shorter, and shirts getting tighter

And what am I thinking? Girl, give me a number, I'll give you a call

As summer progresses, it's crazy to see how much less each one dresses

How much can I stress this? No wonder we struggle, I'm willing to bet this

It's easy to juggle unless it gets out in the open, I gotta suppress this

Looking at them when they're looking like dolls, I think I'm in trouble but

If the Lord Jesus Christ was really my shepherd, then I wouldn't want it at all

But seems that I'm destined a little like Paul to keep doing the things that I don't want to do

And not what I do, I'm hearing the call, but frankly I'm scared, I'm scared

You hear what I said? I'm scared, I'm scared that someday I'm really gon' fall

And it's gonna ruin what God has embedded in me

Like Samson with no hair, my strength will just leave

It has nothing to do with me being misled

He certainly leads me, but I gotta follow and sometimes instead

I'm following me and that man on my shoulder, now come on you devil, get on up and out of my head

I said, get out of my head

If a man owns a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away

Will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hill and go look for the one that wandered off

And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off

I gotta get out of this rut I'm in, please open the doors at the church then get out of the way I am coming in

And I ain't just walking, I'm running in

But it ain't enough just to sit there and listen

The preacher is pleading for me to repent, and I feel God nudging

But somehow I can't move my feet, think they're staring at me, bet they're judging

I'm trying to get up, why am I so resistant

I know that I want His forgiveness, so why can't I move? Tell me, what am I missing

I think it's this sin, got everything twisted

Still deep in my heart, what I feel, let's just say I'm convicted

So tell me what I gotta do to get back in Your graces, nothing

Silly of me to believe I could ever do anything to earn Your love

My heart just races, put me through paces, trying to erase all the traces of sin in my past

The present approaches upon me, and I am still wearing disguises

Probably because just between you and me, I am not in the mood for surprises

I realize this isn't a game, but the prize is

Something I simply cannot live without, but idolizing isn't for me

No question and diggity, there is no doubt that I ain't got any of it figured out

Still the pressure is on me, feel like I'm out on a limb, like I'm out here alone

Maybe that's why I'm ornery, finding it hard to be transparent

Cause y'all might think less of me, don't bother with telling me that I am wrong

I am fully aware it's the enemy, still it depresses me that I find necessity

In keeping a secret that's keeping the best in me down, like I've been arrested

And now I'm asleep with 270 million others who suffer depression like we all belong in a cell

Uh, it's quiet in here, so let's keep it quiet, huh

Or maybe I'll yell, but who's gonna hear me when nobody cares

At least I am breathing, but barely, I want out of my shell, I'm sorry, sincerely

I gotta take action, I don't got all day and the moments keep passing

It's simple enough, but the question remains, can I actually do what he's asking

I am too passive, the violent are taking the kingdom by force

I know what his word is, so why ain't I saddled my horse

I heard Steven Curtis

We can't afford to miss what he's given us

Already tried what the world has been passing around

And ain't none of it done anything except driven us crazy

Now we're all manic or lazy, placing the blame we should place on ourselves

For the things that we did, on everyone else

This is the edge, this is the cusp between greatness and messin' up

This is the edge, this is the cusp between greatness and messin' up

This is the edge, this is the cusp between greatness and messin' up

This is the edge, this is the cusp between greatness and messin' up