therapy session. Lyrics

First things first

This ain't no pitty me

It was just weighing on me heavily

My mental been in shambles

And my pride been upset with me

Everything stressing me

My son the only one who really brings out the best in me

I'm tryna be his hero

Never wanna show him less of me

Life keep testing me

Ever since I moved to LA

I FELT LESS OF ME

And that's Truthfully

And Respectfully

I never seen nobody die until I lost my granny

A few years later more death in the family

This time a lil harder

I was Watching Atlanta on tv

Not noticing that my cousin was calling

I ain't see it though

Now He knocking at my front door

I'm looking out the peep hole

Like nigga why u knocking like the police for

That's when I seen it in his eyes

My auntie had transitioned

I woulda broke down and cried

But I couldn't really listen

I Hopped in my Honda

Drove to the hospital

I Seen all the family

And it really hurt my feelings

It really broke my heart

It still breaks my heart

I miss you yeah I miss you

That's when I fell apart

That's when I started spiraling out of control

Cause the hardest thing in life is to move on

Remember back when I used to sit up in my brother room

IMac running tryna figure out the auto tune

Saying to myself imma be That nigga

Years steady moving pass me

Couldn't be more clearer

Start sipping dirty just to have something I could lean on

Mix it with the goose watching Martin re runs

A few pills made me feel better

Yellow mall runs had to re up on that hilfiger

Or polo or whatever

Tears run down my face

In windy weather

Failed friendships don't make anything better

The music take my pain away

I'm tryna buy my peace back

It's like it's been on layaway

Sitting in them hospital beds

After the breakdown

Ambulance sounds in my head

I wanna break down

But I keep pushing and praying

And waiting and staying ready for my moment

Cause anyDAY now

I'mma be the man

Imma make em' all proud

I'mma be the man

Imma make em' all proud

I'mma be the man

Imma make em' all proud

I'mma be the man

Imma make em' all proud