The Real Me (Clean) Lyrics

Well I'm broke

Twenty-four years old and still alone

Addicted to caffeine and letting go

Of everyone that gets too close

I'm a joke

Tryna stay consistent with my phone

Nervously rehearsing for a post

About a song that I just wrote

In hopes that

That someday I might change

Won't always talk to fill the space

Maybe being authentic won't feel fake

And I could honestly say that

The real me is here to stay

I don't know

If I'll ever really come out of this low place

I've been writing, I've been running

I guess just I keep finding new ways to cope

Hell it's a joke

Just tryna stay relevant and "woke"

I'm anxiously reading my own horoscope

I just want to know where to go from here

In hopes that

That someday I might change

Won't always talk to fill the space

Maybe being authentic won't feel fake

And I could honestly say that

The real me is here to stay

I keep staying up all night tryna force myself to close my eyes

But nothing ever works on my restless mind

Especially when it gets worse on sober nights

Stuck awake here wondering why

Getting no sleep is my kryptonite

I think I'm a masochist but I think I'm a lie

Still smile at the end of the night pretending I'm fine

Whenever my friends ask me "how's your life?"

Truth is I think we all think about giving up sometimes

Truth is I worry so much I forget how to socialize

Truth is I wish that I could just dismiss all the people that made me feel like s***

But I can't

But pain is perspective

Heartache is a lesson

Money might just be a comedic sense of direction

I'm pretty sure unconditional love might be subjective

Cause eventually we all end up with a form of conditional depression

No way I'm alone I think being "f***** up" might just be relevant

But then again I'm only guessing

That someday I might change

Won't always talk to fill the space

Maybe being authentic won't feel fake

And I could honestly say that

The real me is here to stay

That someday I might change

Won't always talk to fill the space

Maybe being authentic won't feel fake

And I could honestly say that

The real me is here to stay