Feb 8th 2019 Lyrics

A little ballad of how someone went from a classmate kwis'Zulu

To being the love of Luyanda's life

It was her first day, she didn't speak

She was standin' in front of the class lookin' for a seat

On my first gaze I didn't seem

Too impressed or have interest but she sat close and at first I let it slide

She was still new so I didn't care

I was still blue from ear to ear

From previous experience of heartbreak

I was still in my dark days

But - the followin' day I gazed again and it felt different

I sat - near the window and I'd turn - south east and stare at her

'Cause I had interest

But - I didn't rush 'cause I didn't want to mess it up

So I first chose to investigate where she chill durin' break

Who she with while she wait

For her transport and where she take her transport

'Cause that last point is important

I'd learn and fill my docket

And plot my move in the process

Each day I'd get closer

I took four days and I was fully set

On Feb 8th I made my move

No regrets I said my truth

With patience while in Jacobs with no time to lose

She put out her cigarette to listen to the words I said

And as we spoke I was confident she would say yes

I closed the space between us and she was like

"Woah, wait, stand back, why you so close?"

Jokingly I told her that I'm no joke

It went well I got her tens and soon after she went home

That same night I dropped a text and we spoke and slowly

But surely we began to build

That was the case for the entirety of that weekend

On Feb 11 we spoke again

No time to waste, I'm on the road again

Soon after she said yes, I grabbed a hug and I felt the love in the same place

Where we first spoke and two days I made change

Days change 'cause we're both now in the same lane

Days pass we're goin' great

A week later it was a different case

There was a new guy in the picture

But I kept my cool and cause a scene

I'm no kettle I don't blow steam

Soon after he disappeared

But a poltergeist leaves a mark

And overnight she breached her card

But no delight to leave her dawg

I'm a lovin' guy so I let it go

And that was me signing a death wish

I love blind so I'm defenseless

'Cause on April 30 she left me

I felt unworthy and messy

Heartbreak now plagued me

I was so haunted and so heartless that it breaks me

Then "lucky" me it got worse

She told me that she's pregnant

And even though it's not mine I fell deeper into my depression

'Cause even though she broke me I didn't like seein' her sad

And deep down I'd do anything to get her back

Or prevent us from being less attached

She'd tell me that she miss me

But the circumstances prevented her from being with me

And due to that I failed to get over her

So for seven months it haunted me

But on November 26

I couldn't keep my feelings in so I told her how I truly feel

Without holdin' back I truly real

And thankfully she felt the same

But them old ways we had to change

But us - back together didn't mean it was always bliss

There were days where I felt trapped in a ditch

With a lack of assist from my own girl

And I felt as if she was still trapped in her old world

I didn't enjoy my birthday 'cause I was too busy cryin' over her

But soon after I pulled myself up

And by Jan I was back up

And somehow I became distant

In Feb of 2020 I did my thing without talkin' to her

She felt I was being heartless to her

When I made a promise to her

That was a big problem to her

A huge problem for her

On the 22nd of Feb 2020 after Matric extra lessons on Saturday we had a talk

We had a heart to heart, a moment

She now had the chance to be open

We reconciled and bonded

Our foundation could harden

To somethin' true not a possum

When the sun set my love for her grew really strong

But I wasn't scared I was actually glad

That my deep, true feelings were no longer trapped

And it felt good to know I had her back

Now I had her back so she wouldn't be scared

Or try to love me less

Before Covid we had a moment so important should be noted

We shared our first kiss

Now lookin' back on what happened it was worth it

March 17, a day in history

A movie scene you'd see in Disney

In simpler words it was pretty

Then school closed, Covid and then Lockdown

April and May were hostile

When we returned she wasn't back for a few days

But I didn't worry 'cause we do change

On June 11 she came back

I was glad to have my lad' back

She had given birth and now different

She would speak but not listen

It was clear that since we fell in love in school I was subject to her abuse

She became shady but not slim

Asanda told me that the game I'm playin' I would not win

From there forward there was beef between her and Ghost

Between her and friends, I was trapped between both

The Pens Down Party just made it worse

December 11 made it worse

From there to now it's been a horror scene

A very bad dream

Feb 8th 2019

Soul

I reminisce, remember this, dark days are a detriment

I'm sorry for being a pessimist

Back in school people had bad measurements

That made me weak and sensitive

But we'll get off the precipice